Late in 2010 the Lord began a work in me that took me by surprise. It started first with this video. Then came the video that the Lord continues to speak to me through.
For the first time last year I named the year with one word. 2011's one word was New. I felt like the Lord told me to name 2011 the year of NEW. I can honestly say that there are many NEW things about me and my life but while in 2011 I felt as though nothing was new. I didn't realize that there were new things happening inside me. In the moment (year) I felt like a failure. I felt like nothing was new at all.
Well December of last year (I love saying that!) rolled around and I began to pray and seek God for 2012's one word. At first I wasn't getting anything. I prayed and I could hear the crickets chirping between here and heaven. I began to wonder if last year's one word was just something I wanted and not what the Lord had spoken at all. That would explain why nothing felt new. Yes I was starting to see the error of my ways in naming 2011.
One night about a week before Christmas I was drawn to You Tube to watch something a friend had told me about. Note that I wasn't praying about One Word 2012 or even thinking about it at the time. While there I watched the above video again after not watching it for a while. I usually watch it every few weeks but life had just kept me from going there to watch. As usual the video went straight to the deepest part of my soul. I was reaffirmed in some things the Lord had told me previously and then.....right there on the screen was the word GO. The Lord said "Paige, GO now. 2012 is the year of GO. Go do all the things your mind lingers on in the dark of night when sleep is scarce. Go and move out into the calling I've given you. Above all else be ready to GO whenever I tell you to." My whole body was electric in those seconds. I almost didn't believe what I heard. GO and not be still? GO and not be patient? Go and not "Not right now. You aren't ready yet."? GO! Really?
Lord did You just release me into the ministry You have crushed my heart with? Did You? Really?
I wish I explain what all GO means but I truly can't fathom it all right now. I'm still a bit in shock. There are a few things I consider minor that I know He told me to act on and I'll be doing those soon. Subscribe to my blog in your favorite reader to stay up to date. All I know right now is that I am NEW and last year was a holding year while He made many things NEW inside me. There are not words to describe how different I feel. I look the same. Sound the same yet inside me is a different perspective that is starting to come through around my family. Of course there is still a lot to be changed into His likeness but I'm making progress and I know it.
2012! Here we come!
What's your One Word for 2012?
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